Abandoned blog of mine

Sorry yeah,guys!
I know I'm a irresponsible blogger :(
it's because of my PC is still not working for internet.
that's why when I get to surf net,definitely,I'm going for FB or twitter or something else. I won't blog.
Hmm,time flies,time really flies.
It's end of this year already,school's going to reopen in no time. And the thing is,I'M NOT READY YET!
I'm so fuckin' nervous. IDK how am I going to school on the first day. With ma new hairstyle?
*laughs*
It's 2a.m. now. My eyes are giving me a hard time,parents is asking me to sleep (weird,how do they know I'm still awake?),but I insist to blog. Is this touching? Awwww.



To:Lydia.
Sorry,sweetheart. I've been treating you bad these days. Just don't know why,I feel like making fun of you,teasing you ROFL!!! hahhaaa,but don't worry,I still love you. Awww.

To:Cheyenne
I've been spending tons of time with you during this holiday. But I'm starting to miss you right now,weird huh. hahaaaa! Love ya,mua.

To:Jiamin
I really missed those days. Hmm,can we just go back to primary school and be a standard 1 student? hahahaa! I know this sounds crazy,but I really wanted to.

To:All my babes and gay friends (I always call my male friends as gay friends)
Have a nice day,before next year comes! And I love you!

I've had enough.

To:someone.

I've had enough. Seriously,I'm so sick of it already. Okay,I've thought about your feelings. But you didn't did the same thing for me. So,is it unfair?

This is torturing me,every single day,I've been thinking and worrying.

I didn't told you so,because I don't want you to be worry and think that I'm so troublesome.

Yesterday,I've been forced by you,and then I burst out everything. What is your respond? 'This is what you called caring about my feelings?'

I was so freaked out,so pissed off,I'm so sick of it.

If what you thought was 'this is no big deal',then I could be speechless about it.

Do you know how much that I hope to XXXXXXXX!?

I've thought of your difficulties,I decided to give up this hope of mine.

I don't expect much actually,but at least just a 'thanks'? Or 'that so nice of you',will just do the trick. But none of this kind of words came out from your mouth. Even worse,you said something that would make my heart broken.

I really had no direction anymore. Some love and care from you? NEVER.

I may be exaggerated a little bit for you readers,but for me,it is such a big deal.

What should I do now? Die?

I just wished that you can care about me,my feelings. Not just yourself.

My results,I've tried my best to score the highest mark. But I didn't succeed.

I studied hard,if you don't believe,you can ask all these from my friends.

I'm sure that you'll be satisfied with the answer. I ain't lying.

According to my results,I know,it's awful. And it's hard for me to maintain in the same class.

I was thinking,why should I be so hardworking? You care about my bad results,keep insulting me,but you will just ignore even if I had good results.

So,what I was thinking is,why should I be so hardworking on a stupid 'project'?

It is really giving me a hard time. Just received a phone call from you,I feel like crying so much.

To be honestly,I've never been so down before.